Many people are happy because of love
Love will be a love ...
If a loved one love given reply
However ... Love will turn into anger ....
If a loved one ... even lie.
Love never dies
But will continue to grow each
Pores and the flow of human blood ....
Until the end of time ......"
This fine morning I was faced with a natural green and sunny sky to welcome the morning sun. Wind gusts were not to be outdone as to give the tune itself. Heart, soul, and my feelings too carried away with all of it.
The second day of this new year, I found a new friend who is so good. He always took chering at any time. He is Arvian. Arvian is a friend of the college and the faculty with me. During this time I did not realize it, because I used to belong to people who are less sociable and also quiet. Even if there is my friend, she is just Narnia and Jesica. Arvian is a smart student but was never lucky sometimes. There is one thing that must be changed by it, his easy attitude which has always gnawed him.
Sometimes he often comes too late in the current hour lecture had begun. There are even more severe than that, many tasks that she neglect. I know all of this, because it turned out quite well known on campus Arvian with the nickname lazy. He just needs the motivation. I do not know what made him like that. I also do not know. I did not dare ask, because I'm afraid of hurting feelings. Too hard for me to find a friend who can be believed, that's what caused me trying to keep this friendship.
New day in my life, my best friend Arvian always present in every sheet of my days. The longer, I feel he is getting changed. Turned into a sweet kid. Now he has started to learn to throw with his easy sense of always on time and always follow the class schedule tasks campus. Huh,,, I'm happy with the changes. It made me more confident a change. Finally, good things happen to him as well. It is true what is often said by my high school teacher first, "there is always a way to get to a better direction." However, not infrequently the path we are always smooth. But there are ways to streamline, ie never forget God in every thing whatever we do. And beliefs to change must be greater than on a selfishness. Rest assured !!!! God is always there in any case whatever we do. And of course he is always watching us.
Sunny day for my soul bright today. I do not know what was happening to me. I felt it was fun when shared with Arvian. Oh God ... I'm afraid, this feeling is love? I'm afraid to destroy a good friendship is just as selfish to have it.
Every time I met with Arvian, my heart definitely feels excited. However, I tried and tried to hide it so he does not know anything that I feel for him. We always meet in the library to study together. All of that makes me happy. Gradually this feeling gnawing my heart. Huh,,, I can definitely handle it. Yes, you can!
Until one day, Arvian call. He wants to say something to me.
"Vi, may not 'I ask something to you?" Said Arvian serious.
"Hm ... of course" I replied.
"It looks like you do not establish a dating relationship?". Hahahahaha ....... I laugh funny!
"It was just this that you want to ask me? you really made me want to laugh. "I laughed out loud. However, it all stopped when Arvian looked at me seriously. Oath,,. His eyes were really beautiful. His eyes reflect a sincerity that made me stare at him directly.
"I'm serious Vi. We're friendship, so you can answer my question? "Face hoping.
Hm,,,, how to say it? I'm also confused explained. The point I have to complete all study first then I can have relationships. "Convincing tone.
"That's all?" Ask Arvian me. Actually there sich my past bleak and sorry I can not tell to you. Sorry! This is not stingy, but it's a secret. Hehehe ... .. "Face to convince me.
"Ok, I can understand why". I also was curious and asked her back.
"Btw, why do you ask me that?" I asked, curious.
"No, just want to know" replied Arvian. After that, I forget everything else and Arvian. And we parted ways because I have to continue at college.
In boarding,,,,
While tracing ink on white paper, my diary. "What actually think Arvian?" Ask my heart. Huh, I hope he just wanted to know, not because he has the same feeling as me.
I wonder what happened, I heard Arvian and jesica now been invented. Why do things like this to happen again to me? When I started to love someone, it turns out he loves someone else. It's hard for me to see them always together. I'm a friend, could only come to feel happy perceived by two friends. However, as a woman far the deepest bottom of my heart there are wounds that are difficult to treat.
Arvian now rarely with me. He spent more time with jesica. Even when I needed him, he always made a lot of reasons not to see me. Huh,,, I really miss him.
"I'm sorry for all the stupidity, selfishness, and all the mistakes that I did. I just want you to talk to me again. Do not occupy myself like this. It all makes me miserable ".
Gradually, after all that I went through, now I enjoy this solitude with organizing my new life. No one should I regret. I just need a conviction to be able to get up to me, like it used to be. Being a strong individual without having to cry over the fact that hit me. The world is so vast, so I do not have to feel cramped to live in this world. Nothing can make me fall again.
Until one day, Arvian come to me. He wants to start everything like before. And I accept him again as a friend. Sense that once existed has now been eroded away by the time. Even if it was possible remaining 0.01%. And the sense of 99.99% that was left was the feeling as a friend.
When Arvian apologize for neglecting our friendship over the years. And hope we can be friends like they used to be, I accept it with open arms. There is one thing that is always embedded in my mind. I think the more friends, the more sustenance going to come. Hehehe ....
I could not, did not receive Arvian be my best friend again. Because I live in this world not only themselves and moreover I do not want to beat the power of love hate our friendship over the years. In addition, I do not want to hurt him by not accepting it as a friend again. I live in this world not to hurt others. But, I live in this world to sow happiness in each of the pages of my life with people who love me, and those I love.
Everything will go well. That's the word that always instilled in me in my heart that I could do whatever relief. Remain optimistic and make the belief that everything will end happily. Happy does not mean to make it always be perfect. But how we can make other people smile without having to make anything look special.
On the veranda boarding, I sat alone, holding my diary book. I will pause and think about all that has happened. As he recalled all the memories bitter and sweet with all my friends. After that I remembered Arvian, my friend. Remembering memories with him, I wrote in black ink on white paper, my diary.
"I love him not because of selfishness, but I love him because he belongs to the Almighty. I do not have to require it to follow all of whatever I want. All I want is unity at every step. If it turns out he has the same flavor as the one I have, I'm sure God will allow the course to be able to find a sense of it. Stay happy with jesica, even though it made me sick. I sincere everything. Maybe this is the best way for me, he and jesica. I do not want to hurt jesica by robbing all the attention. If I do not get her as a girlfriend. I hope I get him as a friend. "
"Grip Love
Love is a gift from the Almighty
All people have the love
And deserve it
Love is not an enemy to be in hate
But it is a friend that will always accompany ....
Accompanying in times and bad
Yes ... Thank God.
For giving me Your love
Through the figure of the people who love me
I hope, You'll never leave me
And never let go of the grip of Your love for me ... ..
Life is hard to be guessed. Everything went as a story."
The story of life that we must live and go through one by one. I think, if I've stepped forward, then I will keep going despite sometimes have to make me fall. However, I will never cease to keep moving. I will assume in this life story so I'm the main character. And I do not want to be replaced into the role of a maid in my own life story. Keep smiling with all the trials I faced. I would say to any problems I had, if I was not alone and I still have a God who has always loved me. I know in every fiber sheet no love life always tucked me. Love that comes from my Lord, my parents, my family, my friends, and people who love me. The spirit !!!! ^ _ ^
THE END
"There is no love more beautiful than the love that the Lord gave us. Keep the love for yourself today! Do not stain your love just because a selfishness. If you're one to give love, then that love will only hurt yourself. "
Thank you ... Love. ^ _ @
Source from Vianda Amryta renaldy
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